The Big TWO NINE..Twenty Nine..
I’ve spent the past year dreading this birthday . As if
swaying in the final year of my twenties somehow meant saying good bye to my
youth. Today on my 29th birthday, I had the realization that I’ve spent
the last year in a power struggle of sorts. A struggle between growing into a
more mature, self aware and wholehearted version of myself, while also hanging
on to my youth with every ounce of strength I have.
Through experience I’ve
learnt so much over the last decade .Part of me wishes I knew what I had now. The confidence and
self-assurance I now posses, but I guess you can’t develop that without
enduring conflict situations. The journey you go through to understand who you
are, what you stand for, your values, beliefs
, standards is an amazing one. I feel
like towards the end of twenties you come into your own and have some answers
to what you once questioned. I’ve changed a lot in ways that I didn’t expect
to.
What did I learn??
Always listen to your instincts and have the
confidence and trust yourselves to follow them. Over the last year, this has
helped me to pursue my dreams and with hard work & dedication make them a
reality. My hope for the future is to continue evolving and live my life with
purpose and passion. The last ten years has gone by a blink and to be honest,
that scares me. I think I have become more aware of appreciating life and the
people in it.
I’ve so much to be grateful for and have a truly blessed
life. Above all, I am thankful for my little family. I have immense gratitude
and love for my parents who provided me with everything from a happy home, to
brilliant education and to everything. My brother TIJO with whom I share the Birthday with, is
my best friend always. The best gift he has given me is his son JOVE. I always
wonder seeing him on how can somebody love something so much that don’t even
belong to you. Next best thing that has happened to me is my husband JATHIN
whom my parents gifted me through the ‘ BIG FAT INDIAN ARRANGE MARRIAGE AFFAIR ' . Marriage also got me
an extra bigger family. Not forgetting to mention my sisters in law ( love to
precise ), Mrs Annie & Miss Neethu. Its
like we get a ready made sister which we always wanted and longed for .
There are friends whom I still miss. The friendship which
had to be given up due to certain circumstances . The mentor, soul mate , best
friend which we thought we couldn’t live without. Life is a crazy roller coaster
with ups and down. STRANGE ISN'T IT ???
As I entered the first day of my 29th year , I thought I would talk to myself before I
jump outta my bed .
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Is there anything that is stopping me ??
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What am I afraid of losing by hugging this new
chapter of life ??
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What is the fear of gaining some extra pounds ??
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Will the change have a drastic effect on me??
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Will I be able to make up my ‘ TO DO LISTS’ ??
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ETC ETC .......ETC.....
Questions were firing from medial & lateral. So I came
up with a plan .
A plan to not let this day be wasted crying over the ridiculous
notion of YOUTH. And a RESOLUTION not to allow another year to go by hanging on
to a former version of myself that I don’t even recognize anymore. As I kick
start my day I feel appreciative of the PAST , contentment for the PRESENT , and excitement
for the FUTURE.
With lots of changes over the horizon, I have sense this
final chapter of my twenties will be the BEST ONE .
Signing off with a cheerful heart ,
TT .
TIME FOR SOME PICTURES !!
Dr. S.M.C.S.I MEDICAL COLLEGE The AlmaMater!! |
Graduation Scenes!! |
Brother's marriage!! (have no clue why he is crying?) :) |
happy 25th !! |
Get MARRIED once - check :) |
The SOUL sister!! |
My little JOVE !! |
TODAY ( May the 25th ) :) |